It was an ok night though I didn't get drunk last night. After I came home from work I ate a little bit and took a nap. Then my sister woke me up to start the night for some wings at Buffalo Wild Wings. It was ok we just sat and drinking some beers and junk then later went to Sophia's for some more drinks while we wait for Robbie to come home from work. That's when we went to El Bait Shop. Just a typical bar their setting was to look like well... a Bait Shop. It had some weird furniture and it looked like a shack. The greatest thing about that place is look at all of those beers on tap! I don't know why I didn't get drunk, I guess I wasn't feeling it today or my sister made it weird for me to hang out with her that way. I don't know...
Christmas Eve
Olivia's back same drama... Of course it doesn't start the best when my parents didn't pick her up at the airport. I don't want to defend them saying they're doing last minute Christmas shopping but they should've been there. She came back and of course her being so damn selfconscious is scared of what the family thinks about her gaining weight. It's not all but being in our family you are constantly judged it's really horrible if you do one thing wrong they're so scared by association they'll be that way too.
She hates it here and at first my thought of her moving out of here was just to experience a new way of living to maybe do something career-wise I was totally wrong! The only reason for her move to California was because she's running away from us. She was never happy with how our family worked which I don't blame her but just going out leaving hiding from us is such a sad and pathetic way she showed in her personality. Also the worse thing is that she's not even happy over there! She's just struggling financially and even without US she can't live there. Her so-called "boyfriend" is a horrible man. He'll make her feel smallest ever making everything her fault with how she's having issues with living. She'll accept them as well, probably thinking I am horrible, I can't do this, or it's completely my fault. What he's really doing is blaming our family for how she is behaving how we're horrible people, he's controlling how she thinks and she is falling into it! I just don't understand how this guy she only known for so little as for us that's known her all her life is doing this to her it's the worst thing ever.
I do agree a bit that our family is corrupt and we totally paint a pretty picture over ourselves to make us look like we're happy but it's the worse thing a kid would be in. I guess it's different because Olivia does crave attention and she doesn't get it all the time with my parents and the way I am, I allow them to do what they want I fall in to being a "good boy" I want out at times too. I was actually jealous of her moving away of Des Moines, Iowa. I wanted to experience being by myself taking care of myself. Olivia has made that even more difficult for me, she was suppose to be the lead on that but she failed, making that harder for me to accomplish myself. My life sucks I don't think there's even a trained doctor could help me now it was a little too late it's something I'll have to work on my own.
We fought in the car a little when we were getting food for our younger cousins we were watching. She's 26 years old yelling at a 14 year old girl about food and actually said "FUCK YOU" to her. This whole time she came back she was telling them all or preaching to them to not act a certain way or don't use that word, or you wouldn't want to be called that so you shouldn't use that. Oh so Olivia likes to told to "FUCK YOU!" because it was ok for her to say it to a little girl. Saying oh she's grown she should be able to accept that. Well Olivia to a kid that has always looked up to you, who liked to spend the night to hang out with you, that is a scar that is left on that little girl you told to "FUCK YOU!" I'm not going to tell you to change because that's who you are and obviously it's "our fault" that you are the way you.
I'll probably regret posting this because I'm just really mad at this time but it just feels good to get what's on my mind at this time.
She hates it here and at first my thought of her moving out of here was just to experience a new way of living to maybe do something career-wise I was totally wrong! The only reason for her move to California was because she's running away from us. She was never happy with how our family worked which I don't blame her but just going out leaving hiding from us is such a sad and pathetic way she showed in her personality. Also the worse thing is that she's not even happy over there! She's just struggling financially and even without US she can't live there. Her so-called "boyfriend" is a horrible man. He'll make her feel smallest ever making everything her fault with how she's having issues with living. She'll accept them as well, probably thinking I am horrible, I can't do this, or it's completely my fault. What he's really doing is blaming our family for how she is behaving how we're horrible people, he's controlling how she thinks and she is falling into it! I just don't understand how this guy she only known for so little as for us that's known her all her life is doing this to her it's the worst thing ever.
I do agree a bit that our family is corrupt and we totally paint a pretty picture over ourselves to make us look like we're happy but it's the worse thing a kid would be in. I guess it's different because Olivia does crave attention and she doesn't get it all the time with my parents and the way I am, I allow them to do what they want I fall in to being a "good boy" I want out at times too. I was actually jealous of her moving away of Des Moines, Iowa. I wanted to experience being by myself taking care of myself. Olivia has made that even more difficult for me, she was suppose to be the lead on that but she failed, making that harder for me to accomplish myself. My life sucks I don't think there's even a trained doctor could help me now it was a little too late it's something I'll have to work on my own.
We fought in the car a little when we were getting food for our younger cousins we were watching. She's 26 years old yelling at a 14 year old girl about food and actually said "FUCK YOU" to her. This whole time she came back she was telling them all or preaching to them to not act a certain way or don't use that word, or you wouldn't want to be called that so you shouldn't use that. Oh so Olivia likes to told to "FUCK YOU!" because it was ok for her to say it to a little girl. Saying oh she's grown she should be able to accept that. Well Olivia to a kid that has always looked up to you, who liked to spend the night to hang out with you, that is a scar that is left on that little girl you told to "FUCK YOU!" I'm not going to tell you to change because that's who you are and obviously it's "our fault" that you are the way you.
I'll probably regret posting this because I'm just really mad at this time but it just feels good to get what's on my mind at this time.
New This Week
So this week at work they put me in a new position. A helpdesk position for our own people. It's kind of fun, we really don't get calls back to back which is great. They've made a lot of changes there the best they've done is removing that bitch Angela off that department. Also they are a little more strict on time now they want you on the phone on the dot. Wow this entry isn't me bitching about this place what a change. Well hopefully it'll stay looking up. I'm just happy i don't have to deal with many customers anymore just the stupid people that we're hiring.
Still complaining
Oh my god! I can't believe I'm still working at this place! It's been a year! What's wrong with me?! Why can't I just go work someplace else? This job is making me depressed and drinking a lot than I usually do... It's making me think that I can't do anything better and making me think that I'll be stuck here my whole life, which will not happen! I will make sure of that. They did just tell me though that I'm moving to another area of our department where I won't be dealing with many people anymore, it's more of a helpdesk of what I'm doing right now! haha which is great cuz I'll be taking call of people that use to be me! haha oh and they put me in a position for "call backs" where if their issue was not resolved before I can call them back and ask them why and if I can fix it... only did one but I know I'm going to get a call where they are just going to bitch saying that we suck and I'm going to just sit to listen to their complaint. Well hopefully I'm not going to do much of those...
Lifeblog post
Thu 11/30/2006 09:50 Image012 First pic for my first flickr post. Got my new phone the n93 and what can I say? I love it! It's feature packed with 3.2 megapixel camera, 3x optical zoom. it's more than just a camera phone though it has a video recording that takes 640x480 resolution and 30fps. And an app to blog straight to flickr. That's my test right now. This is a pick of me at work and my buddy Josh took the pic. I really don't look happy at all but that's funny... I guess...
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