Christmas 2009

So I feel this Christmas was a great one, good times with family and friends. Even though it's pretty much like any other get together at my house. It always feel good to have the relationship I have with my family... I really have to appreciate what I have because there's so many people out there that really does not have what I have.

I've always thought this holiday was just getting presents and I would be unhappy if I didn't get what I wanted... Crazy that even as an adult I still thought that way. This year was different for me, I kind of felt like I should stop being as greedy as I've been in the past and start thinking of the people around me. I've bought presents for people in the past but really what I would do is just had someone do most of my shopping for me because I'm too lazy to take the time to care about what it is I'm about to give to someone. This time around I actually took the time to try to find a gift specific for everyone one that I was planning on buying them. Doing that actually felt really good once the people received their gift, like you did an especially great job.

I have to say... the end of this year has been looking really good and hopefully that means a great new beginning of 2010...

Cheers!

An Email to You.

There’s no fixing your past, that’s just it. So you have limp leg for the rest of your life, but you’re still able to walk. People have flaws you need to just live with them and move on. Dwelling on a problem leads to weakness and people will feel sorry for you. Don’t make people around you feel sorry for you, you got to let it be known that you’re capable of handling yourself. People will take advantage of your weakness and use you, knowing that you are so eager to find someone to commit and tell all how you feel. Just think of your child, don’t make them see your flaws. They learn from you and would feel it would be alright to grow up being inept.

I hope you get some perspective on what I just said… You just need to hear it as blunt as it may seem.

Stop Being Lazy and Grow Up!

I need to stop surrounding myself with these "losers." I have a few friends out there who just can't seem to get anything right. I have some folks who never show up to work or avoiding work or making excuses to not work. One that has been fired and feels absolutely fine collecting unemployment. Another who's been playing video and smoking weed living with the parents' basement after also getting fired from their job. I almost feel that because of having those friends that it's also affected me on how I lived my life this far. I'm a little more goal oriented then them obviously but I feel like I don't try as hard to work myself up to where I want to be in life.

It also upsets me just knowing I've busted my ass at work and basically living paycheck after paycheck and seeing these people on their lazy asses and getting help from mommy and daddy. I don't know... I feel if I continue to be around people who are motivated and "works hard for the money" I can kinda vibe off that and it may possibly makes it easier for me to get to my aspirations.

I'm not blaming others for my own mistakes I know it's me being in control of life. I just feel that you kind of adapt to your surroundings and you learn and grow from it.