Oh I was on a call today just doing my regular technical support, and they started conversation. They were on the east coast asking how it was in little Des Moines, Iowa. I told them the truth this place is hell if you don't leave on time you're stuck here forever never succeeding and moving up in the world. It's very rare that someone will come out doing something great here. Most big business here do not start from Iowa it's from other places with more drive and more talent, and just using a small low cost city but still in the States to make more money off of.
I told my caller that I would love leaving this place and move to a big city living that "cool urban life" and all of that. it's something that I've always been interested in but seriously though if I was to move out there I wouldn't have a clue what to do. I don't really have any kind of profession I just have a lot of interest that I usually don't follow through with anything. I really lack determination and leadership that I feel is required when moving from here to there, also I don't have the people in my life that would be willing to tag along because I know I just can't do it myself. People I know are completely fine with this HOLE we call Des Moines, Iowa. I just wish I had the motivation or that extra boost to get me going, hell I can't even leave the place I'm working at that I've been bitching at for so long.
Sometimes I wish my parents would give me a little more talking to when I was younger. I love them very much they've done well but it's not like they've giving me enough motivation to always do your best no matter what or supported me on what I really want to do. They've just told me to do well in school and try to get a career that will bring in the cash. That's not what I want to do... yeah computers and junk is fun and interesting but I don't think that was what I want my career to be and because of that I don't even know what I want to do. It's sad I'm 23 but I feel like it's going to be like this for my life just doing the minimum and not following what I want to do but what people want of me.
