Can't Please Everyone

I hate parents sometimes! My little cousin has always been into music and she sings all the time she wants to be a singer so bad... (You’re asking if she's good? Well she's ok more work and she can maybe do something with it) anyway she does a lot of choir stuff and you can tell she has a lot of passion for it. She was bringing up one time that American Idol was coming to Omaha and she would like to try out and bluntly her mom says "we won't support you" I mean what the hell? I guess it's another time they lived in and they still think how people thought in the "old country" how it's education and you have to be a doctor or lawyer or something that they believe will be a comfortable life. I know they just think what's best but if you have no love for that why pursue? You're doing it for them not for yourself so you'll be living perhaps miserable because it's not something you wanted.

I don’t know I guess the reason why I’m so upset is because I think it’s the same with me and that’s why I’m probably feeling the way I feel sometimes. I’m not happy how life is going and I don’t even know what I’ll do in 5 years hopefully still not at EDS then I know that I have failed. My parents wanted me to do something with computers be a programmer because they heard from the grapevine that, (Asian parents love to talk about their kids and brag to other parents) that makes a lot of money. As much as technical I am with computer and knowledge of how they work it’s not really what I wanted to do. To be honest though I don’t even know what I wanted to do. (I might have made this clear in past posts) Some time going to college I just didn’t try anymore and I just stopped caring, I quit they’re upset but I decided on my own. I would love to go back to school but I just wanted to do something else for a while that doesn’t have to do anything with school.

I know I’m still young and have plenty of time to decide on what to do but it doesn’t help that I see people my age already finishing college and actually working at this big time company or starting their own or something. I stop caring to try to please my parents on what they want me to be even though they do bring it up sometimes. Right now I need to do things myself even though I don’t even know what that is…


A picture I took in LA at a shopping are called "The Grove"