So I've been laid off from my job right at the end of January 2010 and currently I'm laying on my bed, TV on, music playing, updating my Twitter and Facebook. I never really had a difficult time really finding a job, usually I would find something pretty quick and start as soon as possible. Blame it on the "recession" or whatever is going on, but I just feel lost right now. The time that I'm off work just had me thinking of what I'm doing with my life and how can I better it. The job was temporary but I really thought I would have at least another month, and that month of pay would have really helped me with my plans I've set for myself years ago of moving out of Iowa.
I am lucky that I decided to move back to my parents because they are having me at the house for free and the fridge is mostly all the time full. As much as I hate having them help me out so much financially and all of the troubles I would get myself into I can't explain how much I am thankful for them. I know a lot of people don't have the relationship with their parents as I do, most would force them out of the house or would ask for rent money just shy of a nice one bedroom apartment.
I'm not a big believer of fate or anything like that but maybe it's a good thing why all of this is happening. I mean maybe my time to move to the west coast isn't for me right now. I know that my sister isn't even really settled there yet so maybe once she gets more comfortable out there and everything is good for her, she's able to help me get better adjusted once I make that move. I don't know, I just feel like I should start seeing life as half full rather than half empty, I've always been such a pessimist and maybe with that mindset it's what's keeping my life standing still instead of "Moving Forward."
