Want

I've had too much time recently to just sit and think and it's driving me insane. My week consist of going to work, home and dinner, then fuck around a while until it's time to sleep and do it all over again. My past weekends have been completely empty and being alone just gets me thinking of what I'm doing wrong and how I should be doing this and doing that. My own company is the worse company I just can't stand it anymore.

Just thought to add a picture to grab interest...
But now I'm calling, tweeting, and texting to find out what people are doing and offer myself to do various errands and even helping my cousin move out of her apartment. I don't know what this feeling is all about but even when I'm around people I still feel lonely. Maybe it's lack of attention I'm getting and feeling like people aren't happy when they see me or would want to see me when I'm trying to reach out to others.

I'm feeling a little selfish as I just said that because other people have drop their problems on me and of course what I do is simply be there for them and try to give sympathy and advice or help when they need it. I really don't know where else to go from here and don't know how to close this entry so I'm leaving it as that.