I don’t know where to start today, I’ve been “out-ed” it seems… A friend came back to Iowa to visit, and seeing me again for only a couple minutes she sensed right away that I wasn’t as happy or high-spirited I was the last time we saw each other. No I’m not coming out of “the closet.” I’m not gay. I think I may be just a little depressed. Nothing to have to take medication for, I've just been well... not as happy with how my life has been going. It’s not what I planned for myself, but who really out there has everything they wanted? I wanted to be successful, I wanted to be out of Iowa, I wanted to be on my own and independent.
I’ve come to realize that I’m not good at planning. I planned moving to California last year but never thought of a PLAN B if PLAN A didn’t work and I think that’s where my downfall was. I was so determined and engrossed in the idea of moving that it left me blindsided, I didn’t even think of what I would do if I didn’t have the money by the time I was supposedly ready.
As of how I am today, I am working through a temp agency just trying to get my bills straighten out and literally living paycheck after paycheck. I seem to not be able to save any money with each paycheck and would have problems with buying things I really don’t need. I definitely took a few steps back from where I was. I don’t know where all my determination is, right now I am living comfortably at my parents house and I really can’t do this anymore.
Lately I’ve been watching a lot of Anthony Bourdain’s – No Reservation and also started reading “Eat, Pray, Love” by Elizabeth Gilbert and it got me really thinking that what I need to be doing is travel. I have the security right now of living at my parents’ house so why don’t I just try to save my money from work to do more traveling. I’ve always wanted to explore the world out there, looking at the sites, all the history, art, music, food, and people. I can use this time to go discover new places and, as cliché it sounds… discover myself.
Showing posts with label travel. Show all posts
Showing posts with label travel. Show all posts
California, Work, Relationships.
California...
Okay... The California thing, I guess I have a little off my back just a tad... My sister is now planning on moving out there after Christmas because of a little financial issues and she gets to stay here with the family during the holidays. I am so relief actually because I would be able to start a higher paying job and actually have time to save money to move out with her. I was going crazy not being prepared but really wanting to move out on time with her but now I have some time to just work my way getting to where I want to be financially before heading out west.
Work...
I hate that I'm still working for the company I'm with, our department has closed down and instead of getting severance pay that we should have gotten we are all transferred to another department that is not at all close to what we originally applied for. There's no way of getting severance pay because they had another job available and if we don't take it we don't get severance or unemployment. What my plan is at this time is just go through that training class they have set up for us and try my hardest getting another job before actually having to do the actual work, at least get paid for just sitting my ass for 2 and half weeks you know? I've got some interviews in and now waiting for some response... I'm really not the greatest on interviews I usually just choke up and don't know what to say, hopefully they can just look at my resume and use that over my interview.
Relationships...
I'm not in one actually and I'm not really looking for on at this time in my life, but what I like to have is just a great amount of quality friends before actually leaving to California. I know I'm planning on moving anyway but I need good people to support my move and to keep me grounded and know where I came from if I get to "California" or something. I'm an Iowa boy as much as I don't like to admit it and complain about hating it. I'm not the typical stereotype of being raised in a farm and like corn, but this is where I know I'll be accepted at. If I fail in life I know I can come back to the people that I love and love me back.
Okay... The California thing, I guess I have a little off my back just a tad... My sister is now planning on moving out there after Christmas because of a little financial issues and she gets to stay here with the family during the holidays. I am so relief actually because I would be able to start a higher paying job and actually have time to save money to move out with her. I was going crazy not being prepared but really wanting to move out on time with her but now I have some time to just work my way getting to where I want to be financially before heading out west.
Work...
I hate that I'm still working for the company I'm with, our department has closed down and instead of getting severance pay that we should have gotten we are all transferred to another department that is not at all close to what we originally applied for. There's no way of getting severance pay because they had another job available and if we don't take it we don't get severance or unemployment. What my plan is at this time is just go through that training class they have set up for us and try my hardest getting another job before actually having to do the actual work, at least get paid for just sitting my ass for 2 and half weeks you know? I've got some interviews in and now waiting for some response... I'm really not the greatest on interviews I usually just choke up and don't know what to say, hopefully they can just look at my resume and use that over my interview.
Relationships...
I'm not in one actually and I'm not really looking for on at this time in my life, but what I like to have is just a great amount of quality friends before actually leaving to California. I know I'm planning on moving anyway but I need good people to support my move and to keep me grounded and know where I came from if I get to "California" or something. I'm an Iowa boy as much as I don't like to admit it and complain about hating it. I'm not the typical stereotype of being raised in a farm and like corn, but this is where I know I'll be accepted at. If I fail in life I know I can come back to the people that I love and love me back.
So, I guess I'm High Maintenance.
This is the exact post I posted on my Tumblr, I usually get more in depth on this blog but as of right now I'm too lazy...Tumblr Page
Went camping for a wedding this weekend… It was fun but I just couldn’t man it out the first night and got a hotel. Even though it’s a cabin with mattresses, we were so unprepared for the night coming with no blankets, pillows, or sheets. The cabin they reserved for us did not have any indoor plumbing so we have to use the outhouse and a pump to wash our hands. I’ll admit it I’m a little high maintenance, so that’s the reason we got a hotel and I paid for it all.
Second day was the wedding and it was fun, but it didn’t even start until everyone left and it was only our people that had stayed and dance the night away. Of course we got all cheesy and serenade to them while they danced in our circle LOL. Congrats to Charly and Ramon I’m sure you have a great future ahead of you.
Third night we actually stayed at the cabin since everyone left I was more comfortable with the people that were left. We went on a grocery store run and pretty much just played board games all night. I’m glad I had this experience but I don’t think I can do this again unless my cabin had indoor plumbing. SERIOUSLY I NEED IT!
-------------------------
Here are some pictures of the wedding, check me rocking out my shutter shades on the dance floor w00t!
Went camping for a wedding this weekend… It was fun but I just couldn’t man it out the first night and got a hotel. Even though it’s a cabin with mattresses, we were so unprepared for the night coming with no blankets, pillows, or sheets. The cabin they reserved for us did not have any indoor plumbing so we have to use the outhouse and a pump to wash our hands. I’ll admit it I’m a little high maintenance, so that’s the reason we got a hotel and I paid for it all.
Second day was the wedding and it was fun, but it didn’t even start until everyone left and it was only our people that had stayed and dance the night away. Of course we got all cheesy and serenade to them while they danced in our circle LOL. Congrats to Charly and Ramon I’m sure you have a great future ahead of you.
Third night we actually stayed at the cabin since everyone left I was more comfortable with the people that were left. We went on a grocery store run and pretty much just played board games all night. I’m glad I had this experience but I don’t think I can do this again unless my cabin had indoor plumbing. SERIOUSLY I NEED IT!
-------------------------
Here are some pictures of the wedding, check me rocking out my shutter shades on the dance floor w00t!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
